Chapter 9 – Could you elaborate on the chance factor?

In an ocean of unlimited possibilities, I have always wondered if two separate and constructed trains of thought would get me to the same destination. Deeply counter-intuitive I reckon, but the meaning of the word destination carries the whole complexity of the enigma. It could be an emotion for instance, or a state of mind and not necessarily an action, even if one does intervene at some point.

Confused by the immensity of the task, I have never envisioned the realisation of my true self as a deliberate act, one out of sheer willingness. Compiling a sum of actions to determine who I am is odd and paralysing, hence the difficulty to answer your first question. Some external and irrational factor must play a role in all this, right?

Given our conversations must have hopefully convinced you, by now, of the purity of my presence here, you are probably questioning the sanity of such an existential crisis that mired an entity like me. I said, no before and no after. I said, simply in the moment, while still blessed by the knowledge of time and praised for the sincerity of discernment.

In these conditions, it is worth stressing out the importance of the chance factor in one’s own development. Our path is paved with endless junctions, turning the decision making process into a Russian roulette. When presented with a limited number of choices, it offers us an opportunity to reassess the value of each prospect and automatically increase it (should the intensity remain consistent obviously).

This component – you will hear it named indistinctly as chance, luck, hazard, chaos or fate – can be introduced in order to bottleneck the strength needed to explore what is in front of us; a concentration of raw energy to magnify an image and elevate a soul. We can then pay attention in an acute way, the scarcity prevents any dispersion, leading to a higher level of involvement.

How does it impact your journey in the Blue Neon? Well you have noticed, probably and understandably with a little bit of bitterness, that you were never questioned about your preferences. It will never happen. You are instead learning to pause and appreciate. It will never be a matter of taste.

Yours Sincerely,

BLUE